A Time of Growth

I've been growing. Yes, you can grow at 56, & you should grow at 56. I have been dropping the masking. When the wall drops, I feel the possibility of the community I crave. It is so hard though. I have been so thoroughly socialized to do what others want and to try to fit in. The fitting in is really really hard and tiring, and I never really achieve it, but the masking still so often continued, as I have always attempted to make myself likable. 

Today, I went to a gathering at my brother's house. It was fun. Our car also had catastrophic failure. That part was challenging, but baby step by baby step I made it through. Now I just want to crash. Save me?

Really, all is well, even if cohesive thoughts are hard at the moment.

On the music machine: Everlasting by Seafret

Song in my head when I woke up this morning: You'd Be Paranoid Too (If Everyone Was Out to Get You) by Waterparks

On the dinner plant: butterflied chicken breasts, rice, sliced strawberries