Keeping My Feet on the Ground

Today's morning walk felt good. For the first time, Diana was getting me up for the walk! She woke up so early today. That felt good too. I don't like having the responsibility so much of the time.

Last year, for the first time we saw ravens near our home. This year, they are back. I saw one flying over head this morning, and we have seen them on other days this spring too!

Today, I am starting to use TeuxDeux again. That means paying for a subscription. I feel pretty meh about it, but I also understand why it is a really good tool for me. I just wish it cost less or was a one-time payment for purchase.

Today, I am also paying more attention to what and when I eat. Lately, I've been suffering from more upset stomachs that seem to be related to hunger, but that also seem to be something that I have a hard time being aware of before they spring up fairly badly. Online avenues for autistic support seem to agree that somewhat scheduling eating occasions can help autists manage issues related to interoception around food. At the same time, I don't want to get caught up in weird rituals and rigidity. But I am autistic. Ritual can be fun. Rigidity is just part of how I am programmed. I have a desire for safety, and the world doesn't give it to me so I use rigidity to take care of myself.

Anyways, we'll see how this way of eating hurts or helps me. Already today, I got shaky with hunger once, but that was partly 'cause I wasn't following my plan because I was busy. I'm going to try really, really hard to be flexible with both TeuxDeux and scheduled eating.

On the lunch plate: salad, leftover pizza

On the dinner plate: seafood chowder, homemade buns