In Brief

So, like I'm trying to just be. To be free. To figure out who I am? But I just am. Me. No figuring out necessary. I don't want labels or definitions, I just want to exist. To feel safe.

Today, and yesterday, and the day before, there is and was sunshine. I love the sun. I've been able to sit outside each day soaking it in, watching and listening to the birds, walking through the lingering leaves. Beautiful. Peaceful. Joyful.

Song in my head when I woke up today: Ride by Twenty One Pilots

"I just wanna stay in the sun where I find
I know it's hard sometimes
Pieces of peace in the sun's peace of mind
I know it's hard sometimes
Yeah, I think about the end just way too much
But it's fun to fantasize..."

"I've been thinking too much (Help me)"

Makes me want to drink to think less while having access to my brain more. But drinking is hard & often emotional. Sometimes I wish there was a magic pill that would do the same thing. But don't worry, I'm not about to go off trying random drugs trying to fix me.