Melancholy

Melancholy is a pretty word.

I am feeling pretty melancholy.

I had high hopes for blogging this year, but the whole blog layout thing leaves me scrambling because I want something that looks right, and that is so hard to get. I have deleted so much. It is like I no longer want an archive of my past; I'm not sure why.

I suppose it is hard to have that archive, when I don't have anywhere to move forward. It makes me feel so stagnant, and I don't like that at all.